I decided I was going to go with the natural force of myself today. As the days go on I am learning more and more about myself. Its crazy to me how people can see everything about me, yet I am just now finding out today. I learned from my therapist that my face is very expressive. Yet I thought in my mind I was giving poker face vibes. Not! Knowing this, I am a little bit more aware of who I give my tsunami energy to. I only give it to people who deposit good energy into my bank account so to speak. If there were no deposits made then there can be no withdraws. I have learned the law of reciprocity when it comes to emotions so I will not be depleted. I have the gift of giving pure energy.
I have also learned to put my energy where it values and pleases me. Never correcting people who try to misuse it. I don’t want to have the depleted feeling again. Knowing who I am, I know where my energy goes I focus it to the max on whatever I am doing. If its a job, finding a particular outfit, a person, or making a life changing choice. I think in dealing with others they can see this off the bat when they deal with me. Having said that, when dealing with others sometimes they attempt to take my energy off of myself and place it on themselves, mostly negative, and try to distract me from myself. Maybe the negative people who were surrounding me could see my Tsunami energy and try to keep it all to themselves. I can remember a few short years ago going out of town with so called friends who didn’t have their part of the money for the room. I can remember being told before hand the trip was booked and the other friend saw them do it. When we get to the destination there is no room to be found. However, we were in Memphis and I didn’t want to feel like crap on a stick because they lied. I didn’t want to argue so I chose to be proactive. Based on my intuitive feelings, I knew the two friends who had children were jealous of me and how I chose to spend my money, having no children. I think they felt in their minds that I can cover what they don’t give me and not trip off of their lies. Their lies have fueled me to place my Tsunami energy on myself. I could feel them trying to place my focus on their negative actions. Now they are left tp be in the bed they made. On top of it all the so called friends went out of their way to ostrasize me to feel alienated and not included during certain times. I knew then this woud be the last trip I would be taking with people who obviously had hidden agendas that were clearly seen by the intuitive queen. No matter what they tried to make me feel about their whisperings in front of me or gossiping about one friend to me. I knew it was being done in a triangle of manipulation by the gossiping friend. No explanation was needed.
My energy goes to me and only me. I know there are people who are mad out there because they can not have any of my precious and pure energy. It all belongs to me. In the words of Monica. You can not have any. My tsunami energy is for me. If your energy does not sync up with your actions and words and feelings you can keep the insufficent feelings.
Designing Your Mental Health 